It started.

I have so much to do this semester.  I already feel it piling up on me.

I’m trying to work out the 2 days a week that I have time before class to.  The other days I’m way too busy.  I definately need to work out more, irregardless to when I do it.

That’s all.

My issue is that I’m having a hard time leaving this activity behind to be able to focus on future careers and such.

I don’t believe this is something else I’d get to do outside of the area that I live.

Is it silly to let something as trivial as a hobby decide the rest of my life?  It is something that I LOVE LOVE LOVE, but…  I don’t know.  It just seems dumb to not follow my other dreams of a successful career in a metro area because of this.  I don’t know if I’d be TRULY happy without this hobby in my life, no matter what I was doing for a career.

Am I dumb?  What do you think?

In other news, I START MY LAST YEAR OF COLLEGE NEXT WEEK!  I’m pumped.  BEYOND PUMPED.

And I wish people would stop asking me what my plans are post-grad.  Next person that does is going to get “I don’t know.  What are YOU doing a year from now?”

I finished cleaning!  In the end there was 7 pages of trash plus 2 boxes full of donatable things.  A good purge.

But in a nutshell, I’m 21, I go to college in Minnesota, I am a communications major and will be graduating next spring.

I like to be organized.  Or I should say GET organized.  I love cleaning and setting things up but I’m not too good at keeping them that way long term.

I have no idea what I want to do once I graduate.  Part of me would be content to stay in this area, and part of me would love to just pack up and move to NYC or Chicago.  I don’t like hot so definately not going south or west.

I’m overweight and have been my entire life.  This summer started off awesome and I lost 1o pounds, but then I got sick and after about 6 weeks of feeling shitty I’m finally feeling well enough to workout again.  I’ve only gained 5 pack so I’m still down 5 for the summer, which is better than nothing.

I need a haircut, but as I’m trying not to spend money so that I don’t need my credit card for textbooks this time, that’s going to have to wait for probably a month or so.  I wear a hat at work so I don’t need to do my hair for work, which is nice.

I don’t like parties with unfamiliar people.  I get uncomfortable.  I don’t drink and have never done drugs.  Lately the not drinking has seperated me from my friends.  It really doesn’t bother me at all if they’re drinking, but for some reason it bothers them that I’m not, and they don’t even tell me when they’re going out.  I don’t have anything morally against drinking, I just don’t see the grand appeal of “LET’S GET WASTED!”  I never have.

Harry Potter > Twilight

I think that’s about it.

PS:  I didn’t spend any money today either!  Double woo!

However, Saturday I DID spend money. 

My friend and I ended up going to a nearby city for dinner and a movie.  But I didn’t use my credit card which is good.

I bought a new wallet on Saturday as well.  It was only $5 so I don’t feel too bad about it and I LOVE IT because it doesn’t have 3423243 credit card slots.  It just has a pouch for coins, enough room for cash and receipts (I’m a receipt keeper), and 4 slots for cards and whatnot.  I didn’t put any credit or even my debits cards in there.  I have my IDs and some store punch and discount cards in there.  I’m thinking if there’s no room for my cards then I’ll be less likely to use them.

Classes start 4 weeks from today and I cannot wait.  I feel really good about what I’m taking and this is the last year so let’s just get it going already!  It’s going to be a lot of work but I’m even okay with that.

I had an entire bag of garbage from my bathroom when I cleaned it.  I got rid of all the products I don’t use or that are really old.  I only kept things that I use on a somewhat regular basis or if they were from somewhere nice (Bath & Body Works, Victoria’s Secret, etc).

Now that I’ve got all the crap thrown out it’s just a matter of putting the things I’m keeping back in my room and bathroom.  I need a rainy day.  For some reason I feel more productive inside on a rainy day.

OH!  AND!  Super pissed.  I bought a lamp last year at Wal-Mart and the other day while I was cleaning the shade on one of the bulbs came loose and landed on the lightbulb and started to melt!  I’m not sure how long it had been like that until I noticed it but there’s a gapping hole on the shade now and now I don’t want to use it.  GRR.  WHY WOULD YOU USE A PLASTIC THAT IS GOING TO MELT THAT EASY AS A LAMPSHADE?

That is all.

$4,441.76

And to make matters worse, I KNOW I have to add to that next month for textbooks.  There is no way I can pay my car payment, car insurance, and buy textbooks (all next month!).

I always make more than the minimum payment.  I try to cover the minimum plus any fees and interest added.  And then I try to do more on top of that.

I don’t know how it got so high.

Well, I DO.  I buy lots of stuff I don’t need, or buy really expensive versions of what I do need.  And I totally over do it when it comes to gifts for others.  I also tend to go in spurts where I buy a lot of fast food and coffee which always adds up to way more than I thought it would.

On the bright side:  my mass decluttering is going well.  I’m learning to become less sentimental.  I’m reading a book on clutter (which I bought, *facepalm*) and it makes a lot of sense.  I’m only on chapter 3 but so far I’ve learned that anything that we keep from the past, keeps us in the past.  I’ve done a fairly decent job so far, but there’s still a ton more that I need to just let go.

I am looking forward to starting classes again in the fall.  I’m starting my last year of college so I just want to get it started and get it done, even though I have no idea what the hell I’m doing after that.  I’m not ready to be an adult but I’m definately ready not to be a student anymore.

I went on a bit of a shopping spree this past weekend.  This is what made me realize I need to change some things.  Mainly how I handle money.  I’m just waiting for all of the credit card transactions to post and then I’m going to see just how bad it is.

I can’t be a grown up.  I hate waking up to an alarm clock and I don’t like paying for necessities.

You see, I went to a local college and still live at home.  I don’t pay rent, buy my own food, or even do my own laundry.  (The last one is not completely my fault.  My mom FREAKS if I even touch the washing machines.  Believe me, I’ve tried to wash my own clothes.)  The only regular expenses I pay are my car payment, part of the cell phone bill, and my car insurance.  This should have left me with a lot of extra cash and I should graduate with a nice chunk of change right?

Wrong.  I don’t have student loans, but somehow in the 3 years since high school I’ve wracked up approximately $4000 in credit card debt.  My shopping issues are for another day.  In fact, that’s a big part of why I decided to start this blog.  I hope at least one person reads it and will hold me accountable.  I can’t tell my friends and family.  They have no idea.  I’m the “responsible child/friend” and this would totally shock them.  As long as I can make the payments on my own no one else needs to know.

I hope to focus on a lot of things with this blog.  Money, school, looking for a job, health.  Everything I feel I need to have in order before I’m a functional adult.

I chose the title because I’m just as eager to be an adult as I am scared.

Now, off to figure out WordPress.